Is baking a pie on a Sunday afternoon with your little girl…

One of the pies was for the neighbor. Don’t tell them it has baby spit in it, ok?
Well, it’s officially fall. I have to say, the rain has done wonders for our air quality, which was borderline unbearable for the last couple of weeks. The dust from the almond orchards seemed worse than ever this year. I feel like I can finally breathe again without feeling like the smoker that I once was.
With fall comes a lot more time indoors, but it also means I need to push push push myself to get outside and get things prepped for winter, so that I will have an easier time when things burst to life again in the spring (I’m talking to you thistles, I’m coming for you. Be warned).
Josephine doesn’t mind being out in the rain (or at least she didn’t last year), so really I need to keep it in my mind to bundle her up, slap on the rain boots, and get out into the yard. Mud is just mud, and we have a heater (or we will as soon as Taylor hooks up the gas line) and a bathtub and hot tea to warm us up after we’ve spent time in the pastures pulling weeds and taking names.
— As an aside, do you like how I’m pretending that we were hit with fall weather and I won’t be able to step outside until April? Never mind that the forecast for the next week includes multiple days in the low 80’s. I am so dramatic. God! —
I am, however, worried about the impending shortening of days and what that will do to my already paltry outside time. I get home anywhere between 5:15 and 6:30 on the days I work, so pretty soon it will be dark as night upon my arrival. Floodlights and gardening gloves anyone? Anyone? Yeah, doesn’t sound appealing to me, either.
I suppose it’s time to knock out a list of things I want to accomplish by springtime, that way I stay on course. But that sounds boring and not fun.
I will say that although I have done little outside of my house, I have finally, maybe, just for these last couple of weeks perhaps, gotten into a routine inside the house. Things are clean, and areas are being organized small tiny task by small tiny task. PROGRESS! If we could just get it together to hang our artwork up after 2 ½ months of bare (however beautifully painted) walls, I would really be proud.
As with all things, life is a balance of hard work, fun, stress and joy. Taylor and I have been focusing hard on the fun and joy portion of that equation, taking some much needed family time. Just yesterday Taylor and I took Josephine to Micke’s Grove Zoo and Park. Taylor has been itching to do this for a while, but we’ve been so busy (we actually got in the car to go one day, but had to turn around becauseTaylor had an unexpected show that he had to play). We had a lot of fun for the most part, and the weather held out just long enough for us to tour the zoo, enjoy the Japanese Tea Gardens, and ride some amusement park rides (we had the ENTIRE FUN TOWN TO OURSELVES! The ride guy just walked around with us saying, “OK, what do you guys want to go on next?” I pretended we were rich and famous and they shut down Disneyland for us. Ah, imagination!). All in all a fantastic day. We have some more fun joyful things on the horizon (boo hoo, I know), but then it’s time for this mama to buckle down and work on that winter list. And now that I’ve bored you with my rather unexciting life here are some pictures of my day yesterday …Farewell.
And there you go. I believe I told you in my very first blog post that I am disgustingly in love with my kid, and will bore you to tears with pictures, stories, etc. I may be lazy, but I’m no liar!
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Tagged fall, muddy puddles, pictures, rain, to do lists, toddler fun, weather, winter, zoo
Last week Taylor surprised me with a day all to myself. When I woke up he told me I had two surprises. The first was a hair appointment to get my hairs dyed and cut (he must have had a hint that I was feeling a mess). It was amazing to get my hair done! I hadn’t cut my hair in a year or so (what? I told you I was lazy).

Next up was an appointment to get an hour long massage. Seriously. It was pure heaven. I was so relaxed at the end that I forgot who I was… It was just what I needed. My neck has been superiorly fucked up lately, and now I feel freaking fantastic! Taylor planned to have Josephine stay at his moms house, so we went to dinner at the toddler unfriendly time of 7:30! I know, it’s like we were teenagers again! Party over here!
But seriously, folks. It was really really nice of Taylor to treat me to a day where I was getting pampered. I don’t take time for myself really at all. From the moment I get up until I drop into bed I am mostly doing things for other people (although I suppose I am cleaning the house for my own benefit too, but you know what I mean). I understand why people say you have to put yourself at the top of the list sometimes, but I also know why so many moms just don’t. Or feel like they can’t.
Being a mom (a parent in general) is non stop work. Joyful work, yes, but work nonetheless. It is easy to forget to nurture yourself when you are busy nurturing your little one. It’s easy to put self care off because, well, you know babies grow quick so you better cherish the time, play and get dirty with your child, teach her life lessons, manners, empathy, make meals and give baths, make time for the messy stuff like painting, muddy puddles, running wild, and plus the dishes need to be done, the floor needs swept, that bathroom is dirty again, and those weeds don’t pull themselves you know! And then for some of us there is our outside of the house job too. Reports, meetings, data collection, meetings, strategic plans, more meetings. Phew!
So thank you Taylor, for remembering that sometimes a mama needs to feel like a lady too. And for seeing what I need, even when I don’t have the time or the forethought to ask for it. Thank you for being so thoughtful and proactive. Thank you for forcing me out of mama mode every once in a while when I get completely sucked in. Thank you for being. I love you. Your crazy fast mind thinks of everything!
Oh, and p.s. If you need a haircut, Irene is amazing. Email me if you want her info. And for an out of this world massage, Michelle at Zenia’s Yoga and Massage is so, so good.
And now, back to life…..

Posted in thankfulnesses
Tagged busy moms, hair, massage, pampering, relaxation, thankful, time off
So this was one of those rare weekends where I had minimal plans, visited with friends, and got quite a few things accomplished! I feel back on track and ready to go! Let’s hear it for low expectations!
Remember my list of weekend goals from a few weeks back? (Of course you don’t, but I’ll wait while you look back through the blog posts. You’re welcome. Yes, I am very patient. Thank you. And welcome back). Well, the weeding around the playground, DONE!, and I started on the fire pit (because with fall – and my 30th birthday – knocking at our door, we need to be prepared for bonfires). I also put all my clothes away, other than my pants because I need probably 3-4 more drawers (anyone have a dresser for sale?). And I organized the sun room a little bit. And I made a cool home made birthday present for my friend’s son (more to come on that later).
I think Josephine is finally at the age where I can sort of get tasks done while she plays around me. Sure, there is a mess to clean up afterwards, usually a big , greusome, so much messiness that it is hilarious mess, and it takes me about 15 times as long to do anything at all, but progress is progress. She is growing up so quickly, I need to just remember to cherish these times of her needing me and wanting me around. Because she has already started giving me those nasty dirty looks, and they are not going to be nearly as cute as when she is 15.
I left the weekend feeling very accomplished, although my house still needs dusted and the bathroom needs to be cleaned (again). All I need is 15 more weekends like this, and I should be all caught up 🙂 And yes, in case you were wondering, I am bragging about my accomplishments. Because I said originally that I was going to talk about my successes, and so I am taking this one. However teeny tiny it may be.
Oh, and as a side note, we went to Josephine’s friend Adele’s second birthday party this weekend, and wow…2 year olds and bounce houses. SO MUCH FUN!!!
Posted in G-O-A-L!
Tagged accomplished, bounce houses, mess, organizing, paint, toddler
From my little slice of heaven…

Although it’s going to be 99 degrees here today, I can feel fall in the air!
Posted in life on the farm
I just returned from visiting my sister in Washington. She had a baby boy back in early June. He was premature, and born at 2 pounds, 10 ounces. A tiny little thing. Because of his smallness and susceptibility to sickness – in addition to my sister adjusting to being a mother and working her ass off to exclusively breastfeed her son (she is my hero!) – it just now became a good time to visit and meet my new Nephew.
Having a child is, as everyone will tell you, life changing. Things shift in ways you can be empathetic to, but never fully understand until the child is yours. People love to bitch and moan about all kinds of things when it comes to parenthood, but what I don’t think is talked about a lot is how uncertain and confusing things can be. There is joy in figuring out how to respond to your unique child, however, before you reach that point, things can get a little (or a lot) dreary. I have been watching my sister go through these uncertainties (from afar) for the last few months. She had such a difficult, different situation than I had. Her son was born via emergency c-section, and lived in the NICU for three weeks before she was able to bring him home (when he was just under four pounds). For so many reasons, she needed to listen to doctors, nurses, and specialists for the health of her tiny, tiny baby. As he grows and catches up (he is a bustling 10 pounds now!), she has had to move to trusting her own instincts. Although I know that she feels thrown for a loop at times, I watch her in awe. She is doing an amazing job (did I mention how hard she worked to breastfeed her child, because DAMN!, I am a huge breastfeeding advocate, and I am not sure I would have kept it up).

For me, although I had an ideal home birth (unlike my sisters experience) and a healthy, calm child, I was still wracked with uncertainties. Is my child getting enough breast milk?, Is she rested enough?, Am I holding her too much or not enough?, Am I supposed to feel trapped under my child because she wants to eat every 30 minutes?, Shouldn’t I love every single second?, Oh my god, my child is growing so fast, how can time be slipping away from me?! In the thick of things, I remember calling my sister and having her tell me things like, “I think that sounds pretty normal”, which was totally and completely helpful at the time. I hope I have been half as helpful to her.
They say it takes a village to raise a child, and I know this to be true. My own child is enriched and cared for by so many people other than Taylor and myself who are helping to support her on her journey through life. I have come to rely on not only Taylor, but my mom, my mother in law, my sister, my midwife, my mother friends with similar mothering outlooks, for advice, camaraderie, and support. I also relied heavily on a few close childless friends who may not have had advice, but could at least spend time with me (however unexciting it may have been for them) in the first beautiful but sometimes lonely first year. I feel that in the early months of new motherhood you need that village most of all. It has been darn near unbearable to watch my sister go through the stress, worry, and joy that she has experienced this summer from two states away. My mom was able to come up and be a support a few times this summer, but I know it hasn’t been enough. If I lived closer (even a few hours away) a weekend visit would be no problem. I could come over, clean the house, cook some food, talk to my sister about sleep patterns, poop, baby smiles, and really help her out. I am grateful that I even was able to fly up and visit now, as I know some people who are separated by miles cannot financially afford to do that. I am also grateful that my sister has a supportive, patient husband to lean on, and good, kind friends to come by and hold the baby and socialize for a while. But I am also sad. I understand why people move away from family (my sister, mom and step dad, dad and I all live in different places, varying from 4 to 16 hour driving distances), but now more than ever, I understand why being close is so beneficial. Because, really, who better than your sister to talk you through? Or to talk about baby poo? Oh, and you guys… My nephew is the cutest baby boy to ever exist. Like seriously.
This part of Washington is ridiculously beautiful. We have been spending our days at my sisters with her new baby boy, watching him napping and nursing and helping around the house, but today Josephine and I left the house for a quick visit to the beach. The only thing that would have made it better is if Taylor was with us. Maybe it was the clouds, or maybe the slow, rolling waves making it both melancholy and extraordinary, but we both missed him a bunch at the beach. I can’t wait for a proper family vacation. You were totally right, Taylor 🙂 See you soon…

Josephine and I made it through her first flight. It was only (thankfully) two hours long, but nonetheless we made it through. We flew to Seattle, Washington to spend time with my sister, brother in law, and to meet my strong miracle of a nephew Emmett, who is seriously awesome! I am totally in love in a way I didn’t think was possible outside of my own child.
Now, back to the flight…

Sorry for the bad pictures! It was too cramped to take any good ones 😦
The flight was packed, and it was pretty tight with Josephine riding on my lap (yep, I cheaply went the free lap baby route). Although we will return home the same way on Monday, and we probably won’t fly again before Josephine turns two in November (already?!?!), I will not again fly with a toddler in my lap. Never Ever. We did just fine, Josephine was cute and still and super well behaved, but at any minute she could have lost her shit, pooped, or worse, asked to nurse. Which would have been fine if we had two seats, but with how close airplane seats are, it would have been like she was crying or pooping or nursing RIGHT ON TOP of the woman we were seated next to. I am pretty sure I would have had to fold Josephine in half to nurse without half her body resting on the lady next door. And then my breast would have been mere inches away from her hand, which would have just been awkward. But enough about my breasts, because none of that happened. Josephine played and drew and ate. She was pretty much perfect the entire flight. I loved watching her look out the window and see lakes and hearing her say, “me swim that water some day.” I loved hearing her talk about the tooth fairy who lives in the clouds (her imagination is really taking off!). I would have liked it all 100 X better with two seats though. Oh well, live and learn.
A special thanks goes out to the magna doodle. It was the only toy I could pull out in such close quarters. It’s my new favorite thing in the world!

Waiting for our flight and playing with reusable stickers *thanks Rachel and Meyer!*
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Tagged clouds, lap baby, Seattle, Toddlers in planes, toothfairy, visiting
This past weekend we lost our dog. Good old Buddy Boy got out of the yard when we were at a wedding Saturday night, and when we got home he was nowhere to be found. Since he has lived at our house his entire 9 years (or 63 dog years, depending on how you look at it), we figured he might just be out carousing, and would be back in the morning. When he wasn’t home when the sun came up, we started to worry. Taylor did some reconnaissance up and down our road, and learned that Buddy had been picked up the previous night by a spanish speaking family who had a white SUV and a white mini van who lived somewhere in our neighborhood. They thought he was scared and lost because of some fireworks at a wedding nearby. We located a household that matched that description, however, when Taylor stopped by only the monolingual grandmother was there and she was not able to understand his request for a dog. In fact, poor Taylor frightened her a little when he innocently asked if there were any children at home (to translate). Unfortunately, a big bearded man who speaks a different language showing up at your door asking for kids is a red flag. 🙂
Taylor had to leave in the afternoon on Sunday, and at the moment we only have one vehicle (Tay’s truck is broken, so we are a one Subaru family until it is out of the shop), so we just figured we’d have to wait until Monday, or hope they would stop by while asking neighbors about a dog when they got home. Taylor was unsettled about this, and after nap time I started to get uneasy about Buddy being gone (Josephine, fortunately, had been easily distracted and not realized Buddy was MIA), so I called Ga Ga Jane to come help. Jane, Josephine and I started driving around the neighborhood. We stopped at the house that Taylor had already been to in the morning to see if we could get any more information from them, and this is where our great Buddy Scavenger Hunt began…
The children were home and able to give me my first clue of the day. They had picked Buddy up the previous night, but in the morning the mother of the family decided that she thought he lived at a home down the road about a half a mile, so she had dropped him off there. She said he ran right in the back yard, so she thought he lived there. I tried to smile and thank her for the information, all the time thinking, “Really!? You just dropped our dog at some house?!” The mother nicely offered to drive me to the house, which I gladly took her up on.
So we drove down the road about a half a mile, and I spoke with a nice older man and his wife. Lo and behold, he said that Buddy had been there (HOORAY!) earlier in the day. He had pet him and given him a chew bone, but then Buddy took off down the road. He apologized for not keeping him for us, but took our info and let us know that Buddy had taken off down towards the next street (Pioneer), and was last seen hightailing it in the direction of Valley Home. I thanked him for the information and we went on our way…
We decided to drop by the big Equine Hospital on Pioneer Road. Jane (rightly) figured if someone found him they might take him there. Her instincts were correct, as one of the ranch hands told us that someone had been by with Buddy that day. He said that the people who picked them up had a client on Pioneer, so they weren’t from the neighborhood, but he had directed them to a home across the street and two doors down that had a bunch of dogs. They thought Buddy might have belonged there. Although we didn’t have Buddy in our hands, at least we had another clue! Off down the road we went!
Our next stop was disheartening, as the property the ranch hand directed us to was locked up. I called for Buddy, and four other dogs came running out (some were pretty seedy looking), so I got back in the car deflated. I started to think we weren’t going to get our little Buddy back at all. And now, Josephine was fully aware that we were looking for him (we told her he was adventuring, and our adventure was to look for him. She got very excited about that!), so the stakes were higher. I was worried that some out of town family had Buddy and they would take him to a pound in another city, where he might be really hard to locate. Ga Ga Jane, however, didn’t lose hope! She suggested that we go next door to see if they knew anything. I thought the people weren’t home, but Jane said to knock on the door anyways.
Miraculously, when I got up to the door I found this sticky note!
I jumped in the air and shouted, “HOORAY!” We found him! I called the number right away and got an answering machine message. I left my phone number, but wanted to go pick him up right away!
Jane and I decided to go looking for the ranch that the woman on the answering machine said we had called, but when we didn’t find the ranch on Pioneer, I thought we’d just have to go home and wait. Jane (the smartest dog finder ever!) suggested we stop by the Valley Home store, since they would likely know the ranch and the woman we were looking for. Our local general store did not disappoint, when they said that they had, in fact, seen Buddy earlier in the day, when a person who had picked him up brought him in to ask if they knew whose dog he was. They then politely directed me to the ranch I was looking for (go four ranches down on the right, you’ll see a pasture out front and a barn next to the house). We were all so very happy!
When we drove up, we found the ranch owner, and we were both beaming with happiness that Buddy was FOUND! Her husband asked me (jokingly) if I could prove he was my dog. Just at that moment Jane brought Josephine out of the car, and she yelled, “BUDDY BOY!! BUDDY BOY!!”, and he ran right over and licked her and jumped up and down! All the proof anyone would ever need! It was pretty darn amazing. We all laughed, and I thanked them profusely! Such nice, warm, animal loving people! They had even given dirty old Buddy a bath! A bath! Imagine that! These people are so fantastic! I am definitely baking them a thank you pie! They welcomed me to the neighborhood, smiled big, and we were on our way home.
I just have to say…I feel so very grateful to live in a community where people are so connected to one another and where people look out for their neighbors. In a lot of neighborhoods, no one would have bothered to pick up a stray (although I might argue that if he wasn’t picked up to begin with he may have come home on his own, but I digress), he might have been out wandering, shooed away, or hit by a car with nary a thought. The people in my community cared enough to not only take notice of our lost dog (which speaks to country living and actually being outside), but to feed him (he was fed at least two of his stops), drive him around, take him to safety, bathe him, and post notices about him being found around the neighborhood. That wouldn’t happen in very many places, and I am so very thankful and lucky to live in the amazing Valley Home Community. We love our Valley Home! And I have to say…I didn’t realize how much we love Buddy, until he was gone. We are so extremely happy to have our stinky little guy back home!
Posted in adventuring!
Tagged Country living, lost dog, neighbors, nice people, scavenger hunt